Six.

Six.

People who have scoffed at my goals and dreams.

Six.

People who don't believe I can do it.

Six.

People who told me, 'that's nice, but so does everyone else.'

Six.

People who laughed and said 'good luck.'

Six.

People who have lost faith in their dreams and think I will, too.

Six.

People and counting.

Six.

People I refuse to listen to.

You see, I've grown up in small towns. Dover. Silver City. Morenci. Deming. Globe-Miami. Sheridan.

We've moved from town to town and if there's one thing they've all had in common, it's dead ends. Dead end jobs. Dead end people. Dead end lives. Don't get me wrong, I love small towns. And I respect the people who are content with their lives. But I've always longed for so, so much more.
I'm a small town girl with big city dreams.

Ever since I was little I've wanted to live in the city. New York City. Not Los Angeles. Not Dallas. Not Chicago. Not Atlanta. Not Philadelphia. New York City. And I believe with all my heart that someday I'm going to get there.

The older I've gotten, the more people have asked me what I wanted to do with my life. These days, it's learnin' about cool things, writing about those cool things, and telling the public about those cool things. And what a better place to do those things, to be a journalist, than New York? Lately I've been telling people A) I want to be a journalist, B) I want to write about sports and C) I want to live in New York. And the majority of people I interact with say, 'you go girl!'

But then there were those six. Those six people bothered me. This blog post is for those six people.

I don't know that I'm ever going to make it to New York. I don't know that I'm ever going to make it to the big time. What I do know is I'll be damned if I don't try my hardest to get there. I'll be damned if I let that snide comment, "Well, yeah, but everybody wants to go to New York" get me down. I'll be damned if I don't work my butt off doing everything I can to make my dreams come true.

And you, if you've been affected by one of those six people, always remember that you have the world at your feet and the power to make your biggest dreams come true at your fingertips.

See you at the top, y'all.

Believe That Dreams Come True Everyday. Because They Do.

I had an amazing experience yesterday.

My sports editor asked me if I wanted to cover this week of spring football for the Daily Universe. Being a huge football fan/Cougar fan/really hot, muscular guy fan, I gladly obliged. While getting to attend practice and observe is pretty awesome, something even sweeter took place.

After practice ends, coaches and players come off the field for interviews. Naturally, everybody rushes Bronco Mendenhall for his thoughts on that day's practice, and the same goes for QB Riley Nelson. As I muscled my way into the huddle of reporters, cameras, bright lights and recorders, I looked around. I was surrounded by a group of middle-aged men who have probably been covering sports for years.

And there I was, a 20-year-old girl with a sparkly pink recorder, right in the thick of things with the pros.

It was at that moment that I realized how lucky I am. Not because I get front row seats at every men's volleyball game. Not because I get to meet nationally recognized coaches and players. Not because I've had four front-page articles in my two short months as a college reporter. No, I'm lucky because I'm in the midst of achieving my goals and dreams on a daily basis. I'm not just reading textbooks and taking tests over my career of choice. I'm living it. How many college students gets to say that? How many people period get to say that?

When I take a step back and look at my life, I realize that, yeah, there are a lot of things I'm not particular happy about. And, yeah, I wish some things were different. But my goodness, I am so blessed and so lucky. I refuse to think that just because there are things I wish were different that I can't be truly happy.

Instead, I choose to walk with my head in the clouds and my feet planted firmly on the ground. I choose to look forward to all that life has in store for me. I choose to believe in the beauty, the reality, of my biggest dreams. Because it's when we stop believing that the magic in our lives ceases to exist. So if you've stopped believing, do me a favor: START.

By far my favorite part of the entire One Tree Hill series. Makes me cry every time I watch it. Totally fitting for this post. :)

Believe that dreams come true everyday. Because they do.

Trust me, I know.

Say Oh...This Feelin' You Can't Fight

Press play. Read. Smile. Enjoy.

You know that feeling when everything seems to be going right? You walk around with this stupid smirk on your face with your head in the clouds, loving every minute of every day of life.

Yeah well that's been me the past two weeks. I don't want to brag, but I feel like so many things have been going my way lately.

I'm writing for BYU's student-run newspaper, The Daily Universe, this semester and it's been such a blast. I'm lucky enough to cover the men's volleyball team, so I get to interview really tall, attractive, athletic guys as part of my grade! I also get courtside seats to every game. Good deal? I think yes.

The DU's made me realize that I am really in the right major. So many people have asked me why I chose journalism, and I always answered that it was all I was really good at. But now I've realized that I really have a passion for the business of reporting. For the first time ever I really feel like I have a clear purpose and direction for my life. And it feels great.

Life outside of school has also been quite splendid. I've been making a lot of new friends and they are so so great! I've come to realize that without awesome people in my life, I would be a miserable person. I thank God everyday for the incredible people I have the people of knowing.

I won't go into any details about why I'm just on top of the world lately, but I will say that for the first time in a long time I feel like I've finally hit my stride. For the past year or so I've just felt so...lost. Like I was doing nothing more than just going through the motions, with no real sense of happiness, belonging, anything. Now, I'm feeling quite good about my life.

It's like OneRepublic put it: "Please tell me what there's to complain about." Yeah, I know there are plenty of things to complain about, but really, happiness is a choice. And why choose anything but happiness? Look for the good things in your life and you'll start realizing that in reality, you're really living the Good Life. :)

And some final words of wisdom that help me keep my head up....

♥♥♥

Life may not be the Party we hoped for, but while we're here we should DANCE

Listen to below video while reading this post. :)

One Year.

12 Months. 52 Weeks. 365 Days. 525,600 Minutes. A million memories.

Where did it all go?

What the heck happened in 2011? I'll tell you.

I got my first D on a test. I threw up for the first time since fourth grade. I got two speeding tickets. I found out the true meaning of hypocrisy. I had my heart shattered. I let people into my life who had no business being in it. I was lied to. I was stabbed in the back. I cried. I sobbed. I felt hopeless. I parted ways with people I had once considered my closest friends. I made mistakes. I lost faith in people. I struggled to put the pieces back together. I let others down. I let myself down.

But amidst all of the incredible lows, I experienced equally incredible highs.

I loved unconditionally. I saw the good in people. I met some of the most incredible people on earth. I got a 100% on a college final. I worked my butt off. I realized my biggest dream in life. I made new friends. I shared the gospel. I got accepted to the BYU Journalism program. I made amends with a person who had once hurt me so deeply. I drew closer to God. I became less judgmental. I spent money on frivolous things. I began wearing earrings again. I found the perfect mascara. I started working out. I visited friends I hadn't seen in 6 years. I stayed up late. I complimented strangers. I sang. I danced. I laughed until it hurt. I learned to love myself. And above all, I learned oh so many lessons.

If there's one thing I've learned in 2011, it's that most of the time, the most meaningful things in life turn out to be the things we NEVER. EXPECTED.

I didn't expect to fall head over heels for a boy who would subsequently stomp all over my heart and turn my world upside down.

I never expected to find out that a person I considered to be one of my closest friends had been talking about me behind my back for months.

I didn't expect to have a whirlwind summer romance that I now look back on with nothing but fondness.

I never expected that in August when I moved into my new apartment that my roommates would turn out to be three of the most beautiful, amazing girls on the planet.

I didn't expect it to hurt so badly when my best friend left for his mission in Colombia and I never thought I would miss him so much.

I never expected that I would develop an incredibly close friendship with a boy three years younger than me and I never expected to be okay with it.

I never expected all of the struggles, all of the pain, all of the tears.

But I'll tell you what I really never expected. I never expected to learn the most from the most painful of experiences. I never expected to find joy and happiness in a world full of turmoil and strife. I never expected to find myself amidst all of the adversity.

I never expected that my most cherished memories would stem from the most unexpected experiences. As I look back on 2011 and look ahead to 2012, I have one thing to say: Screw the saying 'expect  the unexpected.' No. Absolutely not. Expect nothing more than to have your breath taken away by all that life has in store. Because, without fail, there are always wonderful things just around the corner. What fun would life be if we always expected everything that happened? How dreary and drab it would be if the unexpected, however happy, sad, or terrifying, never occurred.

 "Come What May and Love It."

Accept it but don't expect it. It's like Michael Buble put it...It's a new dawn, it's a new day, it's a new life...And I'm feelin' good.

Embrace the past and promise yourself a better future. Because, truth is, we're all better people than we were a year ago. We've all come so far. And in another 365 days, I can promise we'll all be even better people. Trust me.

See you then? :)

 

Ode to a Dying Breed

Ever since I was little, I have loved one thing above all: sports. I've played nearly every sport competitively at one point or another, and I used to dream of competing professionally one day - of making millions of dollars, of being an Olympian, of being a household name. Somewhere during my twenty years of life, that changed. Now, my passion for sports manifests itself in the form of journalism.

After making perhaps the biggest decision of my life thus far, I am now just days away from submitting my application to BYU's journalism program. Being on the brink of taking a huge step in the direction of making my biggest dream come true has made me take a look at my short career as a journalist - at where I've been, where I am, and where I'm going.

Where I've Been:

I first became interested in journalism as a sophomore in high school. At the time, Sheridan High School's newspaper, The Ocksheperida, had a pretty awesome Sports Editor named Dan Mediate in charge. In addition to other articles, he wrote a sports column every issue that I thoroughly enjoyed reading. I mentioned my love of Dan's writing to my sophomore english teacher, who was also the newspaper advisor, and he recommended that I give journalism a try.

I took his advice and joined the "Ock" staff at the beginning of my junior year. I got the job as Sports Editor and fell in love with it fairly quickly. It wasn't being on the inside of the news loop or seeing my name in print that I loved most. It wasn't even having the opportunity to interview important and noteworthy people that I loved most. What I loved most about serving as Sports Editor was exactly that: serving. I didn't have to go to sporting events to get pictures if I didn't want to; I didn't have to interview the stars of the football team if I didn't want to; I didn't have to spend hours editing articles and page layouts. But I did. Call me crazy, but I had fun doing all the things editors do because I knew the students of SHS deserved the best. I fell in love with that feeling and realized that journalism was what I was meant to do with my life.

Attached are two of my articles that I wrote in high school. The first is my very first news article from my junior year on the "Ock" staff; the second is my final sports column I wrote as a senior. It's my favorite piece of writing I've ever done. Below the articles are several pictures that I took from various sports events.

https://docs.google.com/viewer?a=v&pid=explorer&chrome=true&srcid=0B-9HKM4IcdEOZDhkYzI5NTEtNDdkYS00N2ZiLTk3YTgtNjcxMmJjNGQ4OTAz&hl=en_US

https://docs.google.com/viewer?a=v&pid=explorer&chrome=true&srcid=0B-9HKM4IcdEOM2M1ODI5NGYtMzBkYy00YWE2LWJiMzktMTFlZTgxMTQ2YWYx&hl=en_US

  

Where I Am:

I just started my second year at Brigham Young University in Provo, Utah. I'm in the middle of receiving the most amazing education and, even when times have been hard, I've loved every minute of it. I've had the opportunity to take amazing classes from amazing professors and I've learned so much during my time here.

Attached are two of my projects from my Communications 211 class. It's a Media Writing class that exposes aspiring journalists to several different types of media writing including print journalism, broadcast journalism, public relations, and advertising. The first is a news story I wrote about a "roadtrip" some friends and I took up Spanish Fork Canyon. The second is a radio advertisement I wrote about Naked Juice.

https://docs.google.com/document/d/13RJqQqo2QmlDieUo1AGgDbYEzx6n4XyXzJAQoUvKedw/edit?hl=en_US

https://docs.google.com/document/d/15qOXK0ElYy738eQ1HNDJSZYSdQcZLrqOC-RbHD_GVLs/edit?hl=en_US

Where I'm Going:

When I tell people I want to be a print journalist, they generally look at me as if I have some sort of strange disease. Most people somewhat snidely declare, "Newspapers are dying. You know that, right?" Thanks for the info, people. The truth is, I'm terrified about (hopefully) becoming a print journalist. I know full well that print journalists are a quickly dying breed and that I very well might have trouble finding a job after I graduate. But at the same time, I know what I love. I know that I have a deep, residing passion for journalism and that it's the only thing I can imagine myself doing.

My biggest dream come true would be to write for Sports Illustrated, specifically their "The Point After" column. The column is rotated amongst several columnists, but Phil Taylor is by far my favorite. He had an amazing way with words and an incredible knowledge of sports, as well as a keen perception of fan/player relationships. To put it simply, his columns are captivating. I find myself reading them over and over in my spare time.  Attached is a column he wrote in October 2009 called "The Unluckiest Fan in America." It is, by far, the best piece of sports editorial writing I've ever read and I pray that I can be half as good a journalist someday as Phil Taylor is.

http://sportsillustrated.cnn.com/vault/article/magazine/MAG1161294/index.htm

I've found myself at a crossroads - between all that I've been through and learned throughout my life and the direction  my life is headed. I'm standing on the very edge of my future and, although it's terrifying to think about all the work I have ahead of me, I'm excited. I'm excited for what my remaining three years at Brigham Young University hold. I'm excited for the challenges of choosing to enter a career that is currently struggling. I'm excited to follow in the footsteps of great men and women who have left their mark on the journalism world and I'm ready to leave my mark.

So, to the entire journalism world and all those in it: Bring It On. I'm ready.

The Cowboy State :)

It really is like no other place on earth.

My family and I moved to Wyoming in 2007 from Arizona. What I thought would be a state full of rednecks and illiterates turned out to be quite the charming little place. I'm now back in Utah to start my sophomore year at BYU, which has caused me to think a lot about the place I call home. So, here they are: the top 5 things I L♥VE about Wyoming.

Number 5:

Wyoming Pride!

Ok so, I know Wyomingites aren't anything like Texans or New Yorkers when it comes to boasting of our heritage, but can you blame us? There's barely half a million of us. There's just something awesome about seeing the all-too-familiar buckin' horse and cowboy symbol on bumper stickers, clothing, and signs all over town. :)

^^My own small way of reppin' the 307!

Number 4:

RODEOS!!

Here in Sheridan we throw quite the party every July when rodeo time rolls around. From the carnival to the parade downtown to the street dance, the cowboy comes out in everyone. Not only are the events surrounding the rodeo fun, but the actual rodeo is to die for. My personal favorite, along with pretty much everyone else, are the World Champion Indian Relay Races. I won't even begin to try and explain the event. You'll just have to come see it for yourself. ;)

^^Small preview :)

Number 3:

The Stars!!

The fact that I can sit in my backyard, in the Wal-Mart parking lot or parked on the side of some country road and see the exact same view of the stars in every place is pretty great in my book. My least favorite thing about going to school in Provo is that I can never see the stars.

Number 2:

FOOD!!

You know you live in an awesome place when a girl can order a big buffalo steak at a restaurant and not be looked at like she's crazy. (I highly recommend the buffalo sirloin at the Wyoming Rib & Chop House in downtown Sheridan, by the way. It's TO. DIE. FOR.) I've always loved steak, barbeque, and meat in general, and the dining in Wyoming definitely does not disappoint.

Number 1:

The Scenery!!

Anyone who thinks Wyoming is just a barren wasteland hasn't been to northern Wyoming. While I admit southern Wyoming isn't the most appealing place on earth (Laramie, Rock Springs, etc....), places like Sheridan and Jackson are friggin beautiful. And, of course, you can't forget Yellowstone. Come visit me anytime you want and I'd be happy to show you around a bit! :)

T-Minus 27 Days!

To anyone who reads this, I apologize for being so lousy at staying up on my posting. But big kudos to Emily Smith for reminding me that I really really need to start posting more.

I have about 2 WEEKS!!!! of summer left, so I thought it would be appropriate to update everyone of the goings-on in my life. (Don't worry, there haven't been many of them so this should be a short post.)

I began the summer by.........getting dumped. I'll spare you the details, but I figured the summer could only get better from there. After getting my wisdom teeth out in early May, I began my fourth summer working at Albertsons. I even got my three-year pin!

The Albertsons uniform is pretty darn bland, so I've taken up collecting really cute headbands to spice things up. If ever anyone wants to get rid of some headbands, I will gladly take them off your hands!!

Pretties :)

I flew to Arizona for a week in June to visit some old friends, and it was a BLAST!! I stayed with my long lost Mexican sister, Raimee Mawson, who was kind enough to put up with me for a week. We went night hiking and shopping and cruised to thug music in the Arizona desert, and even almost got eaten by a giraffe! I also got to spend some time with Robbie Berger, Sami Encizo, Courtney Canez, Cody Falquez, Dusty Angel, and Rebecca Lopez...All very, very good friends. I won't even begin to list the insane things we did.

Night hikin'!!

Tucson zoooooo!

Before I left for Arizona, I started dating Devin Escamilla. My first summer romance. We broke up about a week ago, but I have nothing but good feelings toward the kid. We went on long hikes together, and he took me shooting, and we sat and talked for hours upon hours. Summer romances ain't so bad after all, ya know. <3

He's pretty darn cute :)

Hiking!!!

In early July, my mom, younger sister, and I ventured to California, via Utah where I got to hang out with my dear friend, Dallas Olsen. Anyone who doesn't know him should get to know him. He's pretty much the coolest person ever.

Once in California, I tried to stay inside as much as possible because of the sweltering heat. People there told me it was actuall a pretty mild week, with temperatures "only" reaching about 105. But still, coming from Sheridan, it was a bit too much for me. But evenstill, I had a great time. (Aside from the LCD kit on my laptop going completely insane!)

I've since gotten it fixed, but it was quiiiiite the ordeal :(

Cameron and I went to the midnight showing of Harry Potter, which is one thing I will never do again. Let's just say standing in line next to a kid whose dreads smell like marijuana is not my cup of tea. We also went to the beach in San Diego, where I got a fierce sunburn because I forgot to put sunscreen on. We did a good amount of shopping in both El Centro and San Diego, and I'm now officially BROKE. Best part of the trip, though, was making a new friend. :) Shout out to Cody Johnson, if he ever reads this.

Cody and Sam stuffed themselves into a photobooth. It was quite adorable, really!

We returned home for a day, long enough to do some laundry, before we headed to my sister Adrienne's graduation from BYU-Idaho. I'm so so SOOO proud of her for having the drive to complete her education with the challenges of being poor, married, and a mother all at the same time. She's pretty great in my book. :)

Sisters <3

And now, I have nothing left to do but work and wait. School starts exactly 27 DAYS! from today. To be honest, I've never been so excited for summer to be over. I guess being away from a great town, a great university, and amazing friends will do that to you.